Friday, May 16, 2008

A Mom After God's Own Heart

I was tagged by Wendi and I'm supposed to summarize myself in six words! Here are the rules for the meme.

1. Write the title to your own memoir using 6 words.
2. Post it on your blog.
3. Link to the person that tagged you.
4. Tag five more blogs.

So, as I was thinking about this, I thought of a book that I'm currently reading called, A Mom After God's Own Heart by Elizabeth George. My mom gave this to me when Morgan was a newborn, and I'm just now reading it. To be quite honest, I've been struggling lately with the feelings of being a failure mother, wife, photographer, friend, etc. I know that some of these feelings are part of being a hormonal 36 week pregnant woman, but it also stems from the lack of time spent alone with God. I have the desire to be a Mom/Wife after God's own heart, but I don't have the energy, patience, commitment, dedication, etc. to get there. One thing that my book keeps saying over and over is that I need to be consistently spending time reading God's Word. I completely agree. However, now I feel like, where do I start. What an overwhelming, huge book. Do I start at the very beginning? Do I go to the small New Testament books that I have read and re-read? Do I look for a reading plan? I just really don't know where to begin.

I really do want to be a better person. I know that with God's help I will be able to be the mom, wife, friend, photographer, teacher, etc. that He wants me to be. I'm open for any suggestions and comments on my rather heavy entry. You asked for it Wendi!!

Alright...I'm going to tag Michelle, Carrie, Karla, Jamie, and Mindy. Have fun ladies:)


Indian Lake Papa said...

First - make sure you have a good study Bible. I gave mama one called: "Women of Faith" Study Bible by Zondervan, NIV. Go to a Bible Book Store, tell them your interest. Look at the options - get a good easy to use carrying case with markers and pens - I highlight a lot! Make your Bible a tool for life - it will be a tool that may save Morgan's life some day - Treat your Bible like a friend. The next time I see you, I will have a test question - the answer will require 66 words in order!:o) Rene', most of us need to work on this one! Thanks for the reminder!

Rebecca said...

i am right with you at this point...wanting and needing to spend more time alone with God, in the Word, but not knowing where to start. praying for you!

Grandma Lash said...

Renee, I love you!! I am so thankful that you want to pursue God and are willing to do what it takes. God will give you a plan. I may have something for you when I come on Tuesday. I can't wait. Love, Mom

Wendi said...

Yes, I asked for it and I love LOVE this post!! It puts words to the heart of many a mommy out there, me included. I have found some Bible study books to help guide me, because I am one who needs a plan to stick to. I also try to keep in mind that God SO knows where I am at. He gave me these precious little ones, jobs, house, husband, ministries. He gets the tiredness. He also LONGS for me to come running to Him; to allow Him to sustain me through life. He will lead and guide you when you seek after Him with all of your heart!
I want to long for Him, love my time in the word, and remeber how energizing and life giving it is. All too often I forget and I let the very life He gave me distract me from Him...

Brad4d-view said...

I saw you tagged me, but I'm not sure, what exactly am I supposed to be doing?

Stephen & Michelle said...

I have to admit when I first read your post title and how that was to sum up your life, I thought does she do it? How does she have it all together? etc...and then when you explained and shared your heart I realized I had once again fallen into a huge struggle of mine...taking my eyes of God and looking at other people's lives...which only leaves me feeling like a failure. Because when I start comparing myself, I am looking at everyone else's strengths and comparing it to my weaknesses...which isn't fair at all. Especially since God has uniquely created each of us and given us different gifts and strengths! I think I am going to take you up on your "blog tag" and talk a litle about what God has been teaching me through a workshop I went to for work...stay tuned :) :)

Liz said...

Hey, Just found your blog. Great post, I definitely understand what you're saying. That has been one of the biggest struggles of motherhood for me--how do you find the time to add one more thing to your day, no matter how important. Thanks for the honesty, it helps to know that all of us struggle with this.
Hope everything goes well with the upcoming birth and transition to two!